A Lot of Things I Would Never Understand
Nobody knows how I cry myself to sleep at night Nobody knows how I hated myself for being me Nobody knows how I begged God to remove all the pain I am feeling Nobody knows how scared I am to be unloved Nobody knows how wet my notebooks after crying what I am supposed to write Nobody knows I am struggling with my own expectations Nobody kbows how I feel so weird because I used to hate being alone, it was scary. But now, I am seek loneliness, it feel safer. Isn't it weird? Now I am in adult phase of life Realize that life is very hard, everytime Realize that the demand of work or personal relationship can consume much of my time and it's very draining Realize that work and relationship doens't always work out together It is weird, How a lot of things that I would never understand when I grow up And sometimes, I just don't get the answer is.
